Human Torture Chamber

Nobody ever imagines getting sick and never recovering. You can't even begin to imagine never-ending torturous abyss until you're living it - "You don't get it until you get it" couldn't be more true. The suffering Lyme victims go through is barbaric and not just the disease itself but the atrocious crimes that surround it. People are afraid to speak the truth because of the rejection they already face in this world living with such a controversial and politicized disease. It's a worldwide pandemic, people need to know the truth. Everyone says don't let your illness dictate your life, chronic Lyme controls every aspect of your life, every waking second and there's no way around it. 

Victims are told by the establishment and every doctor they see it's all in their heads. It is, literally. They're living with a permanent brain infection, encephalopathy, hydrocephalus, demyelination or lesions. Your brain becomes hijacked. Your mind becomes it's own entity that you don't even recognize anymore. Progressive cognitive dysfunction and memory loss as if every brain cell is being destroyed one by one. Thoughts disconnected from your speech. Auditory and visual hallucinations as if you've been drugged. It will drag you through the deepest darkest levels of hell you've never imagined existed. Rage out of nowhere like the Incredible Hulk and crippling anxiety. You cry yourself to sleep, you cry alone staring hopelessly at your 4 walls day in and day out. Begging to be saved or begging just to be put out of the misery. Help me please. Make it stop. Sorrow, defeat, hopelessness, powerlessness. Are you dying or fighting to survive?

It's as if your body has an internal circuit breaker malfunctioning each circuit one by one. Pain ripping through and ravaging through every organ system. Crushing every bone, mutilating every joint, suffocating every muscle until strangulation, head pressure as if your brain is imploding, sand paper scraping your brain, razor blades ripping through your intestines and stomach, trying to breathe as if something is squeezing your lungs, blood turned to acid burning you from the inside out like a pressure cooker, railroad spikes into your skeletal system, lesions as if you were burned, pain that throws you to the ground. 

Central nervous system as if it were hooked up to a high voltage power line like being tortured to death with a slow steady constant electrocution running through every vein, penetrating the brain to insanity. Electrifying, zapping, burning, tingling, stabbing, vibrating like an internal short circuited exposed live wire backfiring, your core is an electrical circuit while your outer surface feels dead. As you helplessly you feel seizures coming on or restless leg syndrome spreading throughout your entire body, sudden jerks and spasms. Stiffness or spasticity as if you just woke up from a coma. Passing out or falling as if you've become allergic to sitting upright or standing. Balance and coordination circuit has malfunctioned.

Body or limbs disconnected from the brain to paralysis or complete immobility. You're trying to move through cement or turned to stone, can't lift your head, your limbs bearing weights, no energy to blink or breathe, as if every cell and organ system is shutting down. A permanent vaccum installed to your cells slowly sucking every ounce of life. Your hanging on by a threads and every day another thread breaks. Everyday a new weight is added to your bucket. Everything is resistance pulling you the other way. Blood pressure, sugar and heart rate circuit shortage.

Everything makes you sick. Sound, heat, humidity, lights, chemicals, physical and mental exertion, foods. Intense sweating, dehydration, tremors, twitching, vomiting, chills, fever as if you were going into septic shock. Insomnia to hypersomnia are now permanent. You feel drugged, hungover, toxic, poisoned. A 365 day flu, every year. You cant eat, sleep, talk, think, shower, move or walk without climbing Mount Everest. Some recover, while millions remain bedridden or wheelchair bound with nowhere to turn.

But wait....there's no help anywhere? You hit a state of panic. What do you do? Where do you go? How are you supposed to live like this? In a human torture chamber.....

"Lyme disease is absolute torture physically, mentally & emotionally where you scream & scream for help but nobody hears. It is a hell on earth. We live on a different earth, one where no one cares, no one hears, no one helps. It's like being a toddler in an adult body, you can't take care of yourself with a broken brain & broken body but there are only doors slammed in your face
 at every turn."
-- Marcie Evanosky Nichols

"This is the Worst Historical Medical Holocaust of our Lifetime."
-- Karen Bailey, RN
(cared & coded the very first Aids baby 
in the Boston Nicu)

"It's like being undead. You're too sick to ever participate in life.  All things that make life worth living have been stolen from you, leaving you a ghost of your former self, forever doomed to haunt the world, but you can never participate in it.  And if you dare try, you are given a payback of such severe pain and a flare up of symptoms that make it never, ever worth trying.  Everything you used to enjoy makes you severely physically ill.  Everyday is a never ending struggle just to survive the most basic of needs. And sometimes, you can't even do that.  You are stuck in a world you are not well enough to live in. And no one will help you. There is no help coming. There is no future.  There is only now, and never ending pain, and disappointment, and a loneliness only the undead can feel.  This is the reality of severely advanced Lyme Disease."
-- Julie Carrigon

"Lyme steals Everything. You become a complete and total stranger to your entire family and even to yourself. The physical manifestation is literally the king of all nightmares. You feel so ill, deathly ill, but no one can see it. It's dark, lonely and evil on every level. Every Dr you see tells you there's nothing wrong with you and it's all in your head. Insidious symptoms from skin crawling fire ants burning your brain to bone crushing pain and the feeling that your flesh is being ripped from your bones. While the nervous system is so badly affected you feel electrical shocks through out your body."
-Rachel Brendel

"Chronic Lyme is like every nerve in your body is on fire while someone is pouring acid on your brain.  At the same time something is twisting your muscles, then hitting your bones with a hammer."
-- Tera Banks

"It’s being too tired to even cry. Starving yourself because you can’t stand up to even make a PB&J. Hurting so bad you can’t force yourself to move your eyes. Being accused of being a drug addict, or that somehow you are bringing your suffering on yourself. Lying to medical professionals about being in pain because you don’t
want to lose your credibility as a sick person. I firmly believe a Mother’s love is the most powerful thing this Earth can provide.  Having Lyme disease challenges that in a deadly serious way.  When you become so despondent that you truly don’t give a shit whether you live or die. Death can seem like the only comfort left in your life, an end point is all you can think about.  You just want it to stop"
--Jena Blair

"There is not an ounce of cellular energy left after forcing food and chugging fluids like my life depends on it. For what seems like an eternity, I have been stuck, floating, in a bathtub of darkness and urgency, while my children tell me about their lives through the door."
-- Heather Scott Hetler

"I'm truly just barely hanging on buy a thread. To have to live in this pain ever second of every minute of every day, week, month, year of 12 years and counting, and for my pride, my vanity, for not letting people, my friends see me like this, then we have my four walls? It's all I can do to watch everything that I was, everything I love, and now my love of my life leave me. I can count on one thing, more of the same Pain? Buy the Ticket, Take the Ride, I don't think this is what Hunter S. Thompson meant when he wrote that. I don't think I can bare to hear another doctor tell me agian, and I Quote, "We can tell you what it isn't, but we can't tell you what it is."  And they're getting paid for this ground breaking news, and oh by the way, send me home in the same shape as I walked in."
-- Nick C. Baker

Meanwhile - the CDC, government and medical establishment gaslights, libels, mocks, slanders, ridicules Lyme patients over power, greed and profit since erasing the very existence of chronic Lyme disease by commercializing Lyme disease in 1994 at Dearborn Michigan by changing the testing to a high antibody concentration and removing the most prominent antigens. This excluded all low antibody neurological immunosuppressed victims. The biggest medical scandal in history throwing millions disabled victims under the bus for the purpose of qualifying a fake immunosuppressive vaccine (Lymerix/OspA) that caused the very same disease it was "intended" to prevent.

OspA is a TLR2/1 agonist, a highly toxic fungal antigen injected via vaccine or shed off Borrelia spirochetes via tick bite. Exposure to a TLR 2/1 agonist causes immune paralysis and tolerance, the immune system can no longer recognize or fight other pathogens. Latent viruses reactivate and opportunistic bacterial, fungal, and parasitic infections take over creating the perfect stealth infection of immunosuppressionmutated B-cellsencephalopathy and "The Great Neuro-Degenerative Imitator": ALS, MS, lupus, parkinson's, dementia, huntington's, alzheimer's, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue syndrome, cancer, autism, schizophrenia, stroke, etc.

What the CDC calls post-Lyme syndrome is really post-sepsis syndrome and is why antibiotics can't cure Lyme, it's the immunosuppression and secondary infections doing all the damage. The vaccine trials are how the CDC knows it's a disease of immunosuppression. OspA via vaccine or tick bite are the same disease. Their fraudulent test was designed to miss all of these low to no antibody concentration victims. The same CDC criminals who falsified the case definition and testing own patents on the vaccine and fraudulent test kits.

25 years later, the CDC is still saying there's no such thing as chronic Lyme disease while publishing evidence of their crime and the real disease mechanism in their own scientific research and patent documents. This past week, the CDC hit an all new low by counter-attacking and slandering chronic Lyme disease victims after Lymerix whistle-blower and Truthcures lobbied in Washington D.C overturning all evidence of the Lyme Cryme to Senators demanding the USDOJ investigate and prosecute the CDC for their crimes.

And, then we have ILADS who only treat you if you're rich, banking off of desperate half-dead sick people by selling books, their own protocol or supplement lines and those who can actually afford $2000 for an office visit and out of pocket treatments by going bankrupt and losing everything trying to get treatment, that fails in majority anyway by not treating the real disease mechanism. Many end up with pharmaceutical injuries especially from fluoroquinolone antibiotics, just speeding up the disability process if not outright killing you. Where else is anyone supposed to go? There's no help anywhere for a disease deliberately made not to exist. Then there's the majority who are too poor to see an LLMD trying to self treat or symptom management with everything under the sun at home wondering if they'll ever wake up again. Everyone making money off the severely sick and disabled while they can't even afford a roof over their heads or food in their bellies, and spending years fighting for social security disability.

To be so physically ill and disabled, with no help anywhere, to be told you need a psychiatrist, it's all in your head, stop faking or attention seeking and to be told by the establishment Lyme doesn't exist. Why would anyone go on years to decades faking a disease that was deliberately commercialized not to exist just to be libeled, slandered, shunned, lose everything and have your entire life ripped out from under you? If you were really going to fake a disease, it would be one that's validated, not denied. Lyme is very real, the suffering is too real too for any human to bare, its barbaric torture not only the disease itself but the daily abuse by the establishment who have committed the most atrocious crimes to humanity as they erased the very existence of chronic Lyme disease and left them to suffer and die with a psychiatric or munchausen diagnosis.

The suicide rate is extremely high amongst Lyme victims, we just had 3 Lyme suicides. Can you blame them?

~ Kelly Irene ~


  1. It is truly hell on earth.
    Good job explaining Kelly.

  2. This is it.
    Word for word.

  3. This Disease is pure torture!
    This article is the absolute truth, word for word.

  4. My daughter-in-laws sister has just gone through 8 months of treatment at the Spanaugle wellness clinic in Oldsmar Florida for this horrible disease. If she hadn't had this treatment she would have died, no question about it. For years she was told it was all in hear head, meanwhile she was getting worse. The world needs a wake up call and should learn how to treat it from the people who know how. She is back home now with her hubby and two young children, hopefully cured, but she also wanted to give up the fight. Except for the love and support of her family and friends, I do believe she would not be here now.


  5. This explains it word for word. Then you add in the fact you unknowingly passed this on to your four babies. Now not only are you fighting for your own Life, you have to fight for theirs. Harder than anyone could even begin to imagine. You tuck them in at night and hold back your breaking heart while one by one they tell you their pain. You symptom log each of them because you can't miss a thing. You need to know what each symptom is and the severity. You need to question everything, simple decisions have to be heavily evaluated. You need to know what each of you may possibly be given by a doctor in every circumstance because that drug could take a Lyme patient out. Sports, sleepovers, a walk with a friend could all be disastrous. You know how quick things switch and we go down. From feeling good to paralyzed on the floor. From leaving you childhood house your parents still live, but all of a sudden you forgot how yo get out of the neighbourhood.
    A play date... because if the pressure and swelling in all 6 of your brains (oh did I forget to mention my husband has Lyme to) could lead to a scensory overload with any of you causing an misunderstood freak out.

    Is the fact your 5 year old says it's hard to breathe again and his heart feels like it is breaking out if his chest. You feel it, and again he's right. But just like how they dismiss you the medical establishment doesn't care about the kids either.
    They say it's anxiety, attention seeking, ADHD makes kids feel sick. Gulf ball sized lymph nodes, nah nothing. Seizures, well maybe your other son really didn't need the anti-seizure meds that almost caused organ failure after 6 years after all. Your daughter... yah we know she's had chronic stomach, back joint muscle pain just like you had since you were a kid, and one of your 5 year olds since he was 2.... But "lots of kids complain of stomach aches, and to be honest sometimes we just never know why, it either stops or they learn to live with it. So I understand looks at this little girl about to break because he isn't validating her, I understand you have to miss out on fun things once in a while and Well that's annoying. You just need to learn to deal the best you can"
    Or being told the ER is really busy tonight, so we need to be quick. So my other 5 year old with major PANDAS AND LYME AND COS and chronic stomach aches, has a 105 fever and "why did I bring him in"
    The extended list of unfathomable abuse Lyme sufferers get is beyond my comprehension. These medical people (professionals does not apply) need to remember the oath they took. Listen to your patient and always treat them with dignity. I guess that excludes Lyme patients. So many more stories with doctors and mind blowing treatments and so much more pain and suffering then anyone not living in this hell could ever imagine. Please for all of us and potentially you. Fight for justice, the end of money over human life. Every word on this page couldn't be more dead on.

    June 27, 2017 at 4:05 AM

  6. Everyone who doesn't know what Lyme feels like, should read this. Every word is true, the suffering is inhuman. I have lived in this torture chamber for many years. I lost a lot. All those years. Living in a hell, the worst nightmare you can't wake up from. Lyme in my brain and nervous system: deaf on my left ear, sensitive to sound and light, extreme dizziness, fainting when I stood longer than 5 minutes, pain pain pain in my head, head pressure, anxiety, insomnia, epilectic attacks, electric shocks in my body, neuropathy pain in my hands and feet etc. Fortunaly I'm doing better and better. I can work parttime again and go to the gym. I can be with friends. I can finally feel again after all those numb years where I didn't even feel when it was summer or winter. I fell in love again, after all those years. I live again.

  7. I had Lyme 17 years now,the ungodly torture it brings is only for the strong!thats why their is high rate of suicide!how can ourgovernment turn their back on us?the cards will eventually fall and they will have no chose !to treat us!bythen it will be so out of control!

  8. My daughter has chronic Lyme from a MOSQUITO BITE!she had bullseye as well when she complained to Drs they kept telling her your western blot came neg but still sufferd all the lyme issue IGENEX lab was done to confirm her Lyme as it came positive.

    1. CDC says not to use the western blot for diagnosis, only statistical purposes. Tell ur doc, demand he/she get up to speed. Lately I am finding that most docs ignorance is only surpassed by their arrogance

  9. I had a neurologist in Boston tell me, when I asked if my tremors, cognitive issues, right side weakness, migraines etc etc could be from lyme "Lyme is a made up disease for people wanting attention" And then he told me that I should "dig deeper into my relationship with my father. because "something"" happened there" Yup. All the pain, all the loss and aggravation. Caused by my dad, who had been dead 20 yrs at that point. Never mind that I have been working outside, with horses. And a week before I got sick years ago. I had been picking 20 some odd deer ticks off my horse daily. He was diagnosed with lyme, given doxcy and titered ok after treatment. My former primary care ignored my telling them of the ticks. Ignored the rash on my neck, and the joint pain etc. And didnt even bother giving me the recommended dose of doxcy. Now I am disabled, on SSD. and am afraid for my basic medical care going forward. even with private health insurance.

  10. Lyme has been used as a bioweapon. Have we been infected on purpose ? Did any foreign entity attacked us and now we seeing its effects. We need to wake up and stop this epidemic.

  11. best explanation I ever heard Thank You!!! my life ended fourteen years ago, I was sure back then, I would fight this thing and move on with my life.... but unfortunately that was just a dream that never came true!

  12. This is amazing. Just like you!! I smell a collaboration ❤

    - best?

    RJ James

  13. This isnt living it's subsisting. I've just been told by my newest dr it is all in my head. I've been written off despite having positive private tests and a bullseye rash. I can't afford a llmd so left to rot :( I'm a single parent and this doesn't just affect me it affects my children.

  14. This is for everybody: Lyme is due to water contamination. #31 and #34 are not accepted under CDC guideline and that is the reason why. Those 2 numbers are easy to find.Just google USA strain 300 staphylococcus aureus (I most likely had USA 252) decades ago from husband infection (mydoplasma). His entire family/area and it has spread like wild fires. You totally do not need a tick bite, yes mosquitoes and any other insect will infect you too. Even vaccinations are causing irreversible damage. #31 and # 34 are indicated when persons are immunized for Lyme (in the past) and again being done now. BCG vaccine (used in many) are also causing a form of Lyme (like mine as osteomyelitis), Yes even TB is in the picture and yes they tried BCG vaccines then (1960's) too and made it even worse as they used monkey viruses for mass production/ less abortions then. Yes it is beyond hell .


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